It was June 13th 2001 when we received the call that you had left us forever.. I can never forget the feeling.. I was shocked. I was numb. I was filled with grief. It's been 6 years today.. since that fateful afternoon. At this moment, when I think back to it, I'm glad you had the foresight to put me in the same college with Kak Syura. Conicidentally, that day, we shared a class together. How ironic.. But I am forever grateful that we had each other to share our grief and support each other.. for I wouldn't know what I'd do if I was alone.
We are still missing you today.. even though the years have passed. I can still feel your presence as if it were yesterday. Years have gone by yet the imprint of you still sticks with us and we love you and miss you more and more each day.
I will never forget the sight of you giving me your trademark thumbs up as you drove away to the airport that Sunday. You were on your way back to KK and dropped by to see us. I'm glad you did. You passed away that Wednesday.. and I'm glad I called you 2 nights before.. just to make sure you were coming again to KL to spend Father's Day.. but it wasn't meant to be.
Father's Day is this coming Sunday. The ads on TV make it hard to watch. Curse them for making touchy-feely ads. I hope Petronas doesn't start making Father's Day ads. They're real tearjerkers. The card we bought for you 6 years ago still remains hidden in a drawer. I don't have the heart to open it up. What's the point anyway?
I wish you could see Seri all grown up. All 13 years old of her. She's still daddy's little girl. Kak Syura is definitely daddy's girl with all your flair and as tiny as she is, won't let anyone mess with her. Totally you! Your two beloved sons have taken over as "Dad" really amazing.. I'm glad you gave me 2 abangs.. you will be so proud of them. I wish that you could see both Buddy and Danial. Your grandkids.. you will dote on them and give them the moon. I dare bet on it. Buddy is amazing. He recognises his "Atuk" even though he's never met you.. and even in the pics of your bujang days!!
Well, its 1.13am. I need to go sleep.. 'coz tomorrow we'll be going to visit your grave early in the morning. I think you miss us. Because mom had a dream of you the same night I had a dream of you too. We miss you too.. every day. You are in our hearts and prayers. I love you daddy.. Al-Fatihah.